Brain explosions.
Sometimes I feel like the best way for me to get my voice heard is to write. And then I wonder who would even hear it. Who would take the time to read my thoughts?
I’m 23. What do I know about anything.
I think I know a whole lot without barely knowing anything at all but I hit the jackpot when I learned that Jesus died for me because I am worth it. He wants me to inherit the kingdom. YEAH. Jackpot.
I get mad at myself sometimes because I have an oversized heart. And I care about people way too much sometimes. But HEY. This oversized heart was made by God. And His is way bigger than my mind can comprehend…so Katie… really.. You don’t even know what a big heart IS.
I don’t know why I have so many girls in my life in this season who are settling for less than Gods best. Heck I may be doing that in areas of my life too.. but in specific…men. I feel like its a super huge blessing that I haven’t even had a man who doesn’t love the Lord have any serious interest in having my heart. They just know… they don’t fit with me. They wouldn’t unless they hit the jackpot like I did 5 years ago.
I mean. I have held out. 4 years. and not officially dated one guy… cuz I won’t settle! Cuz I don’t have to! God knew exactly what He was doing when He created me and He knows exactly who will be the most wonderful husband I could ever dream of! This man is worth the wait!
In the mean time I am COMPLETE without him. I am.
I recently lost my purity ring. But I didn’t lose my purity. The ring didn’t make me any purer but it certainly was a conversation starter and gave me opportunities to share a different way of living. I love being an outcast. Its not fun but not everyone really gets it. And Jesus CHOSE me. This is an opportunity I have and not everyone else does. Some people have no idea why anyone would ever wait to have sex until they are married. That sounds so absurd to most people. How could you marry someone who you haven’t slept with? But doesn’t marriage mean way more than that? I think if God has given me the peace and the GO on marrying someone that He most certainly will take care of the sex part. He created that. That was His idea before it was ever mine!!
I am thankful for this season of singleness. I have no idea how much longer I will be in it. But I know that in this season I am so thankful for my single friends. I and thankful for friends who are waiting. For friends who desire Gods best and encourage me not to settle! I’m thankful for friends who encourage me not to waste my time with men who don’t deserve it.
Dear future husband. I am complete without you. I am not perfect. I never will be, but God has made me a new creation. He is working on me every day. We are working pretty hard here hahah.. oy. I fail often. I am not ready for you yet. And that is okay. I say that now and I know I could probably meet you tomorrow. Gods timing is perfect.. and I can trust in that. I will. I don’t have much else to hold onto. I have Jesus. He is taking care of me. And preparing me for the day I meet you. For the day I know you are the one. I’m not ready yet. But I will be by the grace of God. <3








